My Valentine

My Valentine
My Valentine

When I said, “I want to change my major,” he said, “Do it.”

When I said, “Let’s go skydiving,” he said, “you’re crazy, but let’s do it.”

When I said, “I want to get married,” he said, “Chill out.” But then a few months later, “Okay, let’s do it.”

When I said, “Let’s move out of Florida” he said, “let’s go!”

When I said, “Let’s have a baby,” he said, “let’s have a baby.”

When I said, “I miss home,” he said, “let’s go back.”

When I said, “I want to be a writer,” he said, “go for it!”

When I said, “I want to buy a house,” he said, “let’s get this one.”

When I said, “I am not okay,” he said, “but you will be.”

When I said, “I am so scared,” he said, “you’re not alone.”

When I said, “I can’t do this,” he said, “you can you can you can.”

When I said, “I’m weak,” he said, “you’re stronger than you think.”

When I said, “I can’t do this,” he said, “we’ll do it together.”

When I couldn’t say anything, he said nothing.

When I said, “I think I can do this,” he said, “I knew you could.”

When I said, “I’m back,” he said, “I missed you.”

When I said, “I want to tell my story,” he said, “do it.”

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My story is as much mine as it is Clayton’s. My anxiety and depression and fears and health have impacted him in different but equally serious ways. But he has never wavered in his support and love for me.

I speak about ways to manage the darkness of depression and isolation of anxiety, but in all honestly, my greatest weapon is the steadfast love of my husband. He has been my strongest medicine and cheapest therapist.

Thank you, Clayton, for living this story with me.

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Natalie

Hi! I am so glad you stopped by. I am a writer, wife and frequently overwhelmed momma to two young kids. This site is about my own experiences with anxiety and depression and explores ways that we can work toward finding ourselves after having children.